i wish i was one of those people who can just turn off there feelings
i wish i was one of those people things worked out for
i wish i was in a better blace in my life
i wish when i have something that makes me happy things dont tear it away from me
i wish my life was normal as people desribe
but its not
every time im happy, in a good place, feeling good about myself or my situation it falls apart
so i ask why me, why now, why ever
Rawr! Its such a silly word.
It has so many meanings,
Rawr I’m a monster,
Rawr I’m gonna eat you,
Rawr I’m a dinosaur,
Rawr I’m a lion,
None of these meaning matter to me,
The only one that means anything is,
Rawr I love you.
Such a silly word,
that means so much,
To a silly Man like me,
She is a feast of the senses,
Her body is a feast for the eyes,
Her scent more pleasant than a rose,
Her song more melodic then a symphony,
Her nectar is sweeter then candy,
Her skin is softer then the finest fur,
Her love is more intoxicating then the best of wines,
Her heart is a feast for the soul
What is lust,
Some say its a crutch,
Others say its to much,
Some say its a sin,
Others say its in,
Some think it a vice,
Others think it nice,
Some lust for life,
I just live for lust
My blood is balefire,
My heads are many,
My flesh is poison,
My mind is hate,
My heart is oblivion,
My soul is corruption,
I am the destruction of all,
The end of times,
The crash of the heavens,
The death of the world,
I am apocalypse incarnate,
I am the rage that gnaws at your mind,
The thoughts that you can't quell,
The blood you can't wash,
I am the taint in your very soul,
ever pushing you darker into my embrace,
I perverting your flesh,
Rot your mind,
Devour your soul,
I am wyrm,
Pieces of my heart,
Pieces of my soul,
Gift of my heart,
Smashed to pieces,
Picking up what's left,
A soul is only as big as a heart to hold it,
Pieces of my soul falling away,
Heart broken again and again,
till the pieces are to small to find,
Soul divides, heart incomplete,
Shattered pieces falling through the cracks,
Heart divided, soul shrinking,
Leaving me empty and hollow,
How many breaks till the soul is gone,
Empty life, empty hole that once housed a heart,
Empty soul, falling away in the last piece,
How long till I'm a soulless husk,
How many breaks can I take,
Till I'm lost forever to pieces,
And pieces are all that remain
Shattered
I lay here shattered like a forgotten mirror,
Like the bottle in the street crush so many time is just dust
My heart lays shattered in to many peices to count
Each shard so small it falls through the cracks lost to the nothingness
My soul falls away in tiny drops from these wounds
As I fade away in to the void I think what if
i wish i was one of those people who can just turn off there feelings
i wish i was one of those people things worked out for
i wish i was in a better blace in my life
i wish when i have something that makes me happy things dont tear it away from me
i wish my life was normal as people desribe
but its not
every time im happy, in a good place, feeling good about myself or my situation it falls apart
so i ask why me, why now, why ever
Rawr! Its such a silly word.
It has so many meanings,
Rawr I’m a monster,
Rawr I’m gonna eat you,
Rawr I’m a dinosaur,
Rawr I’m a lion,
None of these meaning matter to me,
The only one that means anything is,
Rawr I love you.
Such a silly word,
that means so much,
To a silly Man like me,
She is a feast of the senses,
Her body is a feast for the eyes,
Her scent more pleasant than a rose,
Her song more melodic then a symphony,
Her nectar is sweeter then candy,
Her skin is softer then the finest fur,
Her love is more intoxicating then the best of wines,
Her heart is a feast for the soul
What is lust,
Some say its a crutch,
Others say its to much,
Some say its a sin,
Others say its in,
Some think it a vice,
Others think it nice,
Some lust for life,
I just live for lust
My blood is balefire,
My heads are many,
My flesh is poison,
My mind is hate,
My heart is oblivion,
My soul is corruption,
I am the destruction of all,
The end of times,
The crash of the heavens,
The death of the world,
I am apocalypse incarnate,
I am the rage that gnaws at your mind,
The thoughts that you can't quell,
The blood you can't wash,
I am the taint in your very soul,
ever pushing you darker into my embrace,
I perverting your flesh,
Rot your mind,
Devour your soul,
I am wyrm,
Pieces of my heart,
Pieces of my soul,
Gift of my heart,
Smashed to pieces,
Picking up what's left,
A soul is only as big as a heart to hold it,
Pieces of my soul falling away,
Heart broken again and again,
till the pieces are to small to find,
Soul divides, heart incomplete,
Shattered pieces falling through the cracks,
Heart divided, soul shrinking,
Leaving me empty and hollow,
How many breaks till the soul is gone,
Empty life, empty hole that once housed a heart,
Empty soul, falling away in the last piece,
How long till I'm a soulless husk,
How many breaks can I take,
Till I'm lost forever to pieces,
And pieces are all that remain
Shattered
I lay here shattered like a forgotten mirror,
Like the bottle in the street crush so many time is just dust
My heart lays shattered in to many peices to count
Each shard so small it falls through the cracks lost to the nothingness
My soul falls away in tiny drops from these wounds
As I fade away in to the void I think what if
I had a nightmare today that sent me into a panic attack, I'm still having the panic attack in truth but I'm calming down enough that i can type.
I was in a house that i have never been in, The walls were stark white, and most of the rooms were bedrooms with anywhere from one to four beds per room. It was like a maze of Bedrooms, hallways, and a living room or two, The lighting was dark but not to dark, almost like nightlights or candlelight without a light source. When there was a window it was a standard double hem window like most houses have, Long white blinds and drapes, and if the blinds were open it was just black out, but not like
    I'm having problems With my relationship, I have been trying to fix things that i had a hand in messing up, and it feels like I'm trapped.  The problem started when I was under extreme stress and i had a hair trigger and would go off on her for lil things that normally would just be a minor annoyance, I yelled at her and said hurtful things that I did not know were triggers from her past. She started staying with friends and we have been trying to work on things, but whenever we work on things she gets frustrated and goes off on me and says hurtful things. Part of the problem with that is she seems to think her doing i